God fixed me!

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Several years ago, I fell into a deep depression. I searched high and low for ways to escape the pain and difficulty of my own life. Like most people, I found temporary relief in alcohol, therapy and prescription anti-depressants.

Once I got saved, I would tell people all about my testimony . . . . how God (with a mix of the right prescription and an amazing husband by my side) changed my life. I no longer needed a Girls Night Out, shopping therapy or any mini-escape to deal with what life was throwing at me.

I had heard about stories where God had delivered people from addiction or illness – but I felt like my situation was different. I could be totally filled with the Holy Spirit, just coming from an amazing service, surrounded by my fellow Christian friends at church and still feel overwhelmed by the chaos of four kids, triplets, Autism squared and ODD. It didn’t matter how much my cup was filled with GOD – my situation required a prescription.

UNTIL . . .  a few weeks ago, while sitting in church listening to Pastor Harry talk about going to the bottle or your pill to find comfort – instead of going to the Lord. This is not the first time he’s made this type of reference and I’m sure it won’t be the last. BUT this time, it hit me personally. The Holy Spirit was tugging on my heart strings . . .  it was time to let God take over (even on this very sensitive topic). I’ve surrendered everything to God. My life, my finances, my family . . . but this dependency I thought for sure was something that I still needed.

The tears streamed down my face, as I lifted my hands in praise and worship to God. At first, I was going to fill out a prayer request form and ask the prayer team to pray for me, regarding this issue. But as time ticked away and the service drew to an end, I knew it was time for action -not just prayer. I made my way up to the front and asked for a fellow sister to pray for me. My husband had no idea what I was doing and he was completely shocked as I shared what just happened. He had suggested for years that I cut back or stop the prescription, with hopes to someday, get “his wife” back. But every time I tried, I quickly fell into my flesh and became overwhelmed with emotion and stress.

I shared my experience with my fabulous Dr. Molly at the Cherry Hill Clinic, who was supportive as always. It’s a beautiful thing having a Christian doctor who know’s who the real physician is! She gave me a specific regiment to follow, to wean off the drug and I am happy to report that I am almost completely free of this drug and feel amazing!

To my surprise, I’m laughing more, crying more (which is a good thing!) and even whining more – which my husband actually missed! It’s feels good to feel . . . even if it hurts sometimes.

I know that every story is unique and no one can tell you when it’s time to stop a prescription that a doctor has given you – but what I can tell you is that God does deliver – anyone and everyone from anything! Including anxiety, stress, depression, post-traumatic stress syndrome – everything! But it’s all on HIS TIMING. You have to sit and wait for HIM to tell you when. But if you’re too busy with the hustle and bustle of life, you won’t hear HIM.

So, take it from me – a depressed, autistic mom, who battles everything from eating disorders to migraines – God is all you need! If he can fix this hot mess, he can fix anything!

Praise to JESUS!

 

The Greatest Gift You Can Receive

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There are only a few hours left. I’m crossing things off the ever growing list, double checking to make sure we haven’t forgotten anyone, running out for extra tape and wrapping paper, finishing up last minute baking, trying not to get caught up in the materialism that has overtaken this holiday.

Imagine your friends and family have thrown you an amazing birthday party. The house is decked out with lifesize pictures of you, balloons and decorations everywhere, and they’ve even written songs about you! You peek through the window, it seems as though everyone is having a blast. Enjoying your food, drinking your wine, and even opening your presents – as you watch from a far. You’re now standing at the door, just waiting for them to open it. They are celebrating your birthday  . . .  and they forgot to invite you.

That’s basically what we do with Jesus. We’re supposed to be celebrating his birth. The fact that He was born to DIE for us, so that we can live eternally in heaven; but we’re so busy with the nonsense of it all that we not only forget to acknowledge the guest of honor – but we don’t even invite Him to the party.

Whatever you do this Christmas however, you chose to celebrate – please remember Jesus. It’s not just about bringing him into the holiday – HE IS the holiday. And He’s standing at the door of your heart, just waiting for you to invite Him in. The greatest gift you can give yourself this year is the gift of Jesus. He’s already paid the price. He’s just waiting for you to open the gift.

This Christmas, open the gift of Jesus to your heart. Surrender to Him. Give Him your life and you will never regret it.

Merry Christmas! Good will and peace to you all.

In Jesus’ Name, AMEN

xoxox ~ lisa

Kicking Back at Life and Lyme!

I’m staring at the clock as the minutes tick by. I’ve made up my mind. I’m ready. I want to do this now! But, I can’t get off the phone in time; then as I’m headed to the group ex-studio I’m pulled into a meeting. I look up and it’s now 11:00 am. Group Fight is now half over! But 30 minutes is better than 0 minutes right? YES, the glass is always half full!

So, I strap on my shoes and jump into the class. Everyone is already dripping with sweat and raring to go. I attempt to start kicking and punching at 100% when I realize I haven’t even warmed up yet. So, I take it back a few notches; get my heart beat up a bit; then go hard core!

Shuffling to the left, with a big old side kick – KIYA! There’s nothing better than kickboxing therapy, especially after a rough week. Not only was it my “bad week” in my Lyme Cycle, it was also the week my parents sold my childhood home and scurried off to Florida to be with the rest of the seniors.

Luckily for me, Dr. Molly at the Cherry Hill Clinic was there for me. Needing two treatments this week, she hooked me up with my Lyme Juice (that had extra magnesium for my headaches) and a big old shot for some much-needed energy. Thanks to Dr. Molly, I was able to hold my own for those 30 minutes today.

Life (and Lyme) have a way of knocking you down, so you have to take it upon yourself to decide that NOW is the time to act. That you’re not going to sit back and wallow in self-pity. Yes, we all have struggles and some days are harder than other. But, I’m reminded of my favorite song: Just Be Held, by Casting Crowns. It says:

Hold it all together; everybody needs you strong.
But life hits you out of nowhere and barely leaves you holding on.
And when you’re tired of fighting; chained by your control.
There’s freedom in surrender; lay it down and let it go.
So when you’re on your knees and answers seem so far away.
You’re not alone stop holding on and just be held.
Your word’s not falling apart; it’s falling into place.
I’m on throne stop holding on and just be held.

So, whatever life has thrown at you – whether it’s been a rough day, rough hour, or even a rough year – God is making beauty from the ashes that have fallen. In time, you’ll understand. Give it to HIM; no matter what it is. You will never know true joy until you fully surrender everything to HIM.

Your Whole World Changes – In The Blink of an Eye

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We’re so spoiled. We have the most beautiful view of the sunset.  All I have to do is look out my backdoor to enjoy these breath-taking scenes. The other day, I grabbed my phone and snapped away; taking picture after picture. Little did I know, until I scrolled through my pics that the sky was changing right before my eyes.

It was kind of cool, when I looked back and saw the drastic changes that took place in just seconds. Although the pictures looked much different than I thought they would -they were still beautiful. It’s kind of like life. Life is constantly changing, whether you realize it or not.  And whether you want it to or not.

I don’t blog much about the Alzheimer’s in the Lyme, Autism, Alzheimer’s OH MY blog – mostly because I like to pretend that it’s not there. I’m the Denial Champ! I don’t think that it’s 100% intentional. I just know that you can make the best, most detailed plans ever and God has a way of snatching your plan from your hands and giving you His revised edition. So, I’m more of a “go with the flow” kind of girl.

I know HIS revised plan for my mom’s life is perfect. I don’t doubt that. I’ve accepted it. I even think that of all the illnesses that she could have gotten – this really was the perfect one for her.  But I just don’t like seeing the affects of it. Which leads me to the change that is happening in my life, right before my very eyes. My parents are moving next week. Big deal, you say?! It’s a big deal for us. When I moved 15 minutes away from where I grew up, my friends and family alienated me like I was moving across the globe! Now my parents are going to be THREE HOURS away – by plane! So, it’s a bit of an adjustment.

Three years ago, I tried to move four hours away (by plane) and just as quickly as things fell into place when we started this process – everything started to fall apart before our eyes. The job, the house, the plane tickets – nothing was going as planned. But that’s when mom was diagnosed. So, I knew I was supposed to be here for her. Now, she’s leaving.

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But as I sit here, drowning my sorrows in my dairy free coconut milk – wanna be ice cream; I know that no matter how hard I try to plan out my life and even my parents lives – that my plans could never compare to what God has in store for us. Just like I would have no idea how to blend all those colors, creating that beautiful sunset He shares with us every night. He knows best.

Whether your life is going exactly how you planned, or you feel like you’re stuck in a snow-globe that someone is shaking vigorously – give your life to God and you’ll never look back. (Well, maybe you will look back a few times to admire the work He’s done!)